Best Advice Ever

who wouldve thought the best advice i ever got was from my summer school teacher!!!

today was great seeing that im so pumped up for tomorrow. yes thats right jeanne comes over tomorrow.

well just for a day i will stay off jeanne and talk alittle bit on a lighter note. tomorrow i will write what happend and stuff and what happend at summer school today.

anyway i figured out the biggest mystery of all my fears in a relationship. its to let things take there course. i mean i always had but you have to have a little interference for your self in order to get where ur going in life. well i was kinda down from what i learned today, that i will explaine tomorrow, and my teacher noticed and hes a cool guy. pulled me aside and asked if everything was ok and i said yea just a rough day in all. and out of no where he starts telling me how i cant control certain things. like wow! everything he was telling me fit exactly into the situation im in.

so when he told me things i thought about jeanne first cause thats who it applied to. she know i want a relationship and stuff and were gonna hang out and work things up which is cool, extually great. but he said if things dont go the way you want them just remember you cant change everything. they must follow what they feel from the heart.

and i just realized that all the stuff and how hard im trying just to know jeanne alot better, to have a friendship and to make it more than that, if it fails, is not a bad thing at all. i would creat a really great friend. and i saw that when he told me and then it felt like i wasnt doing this for me or her or just a relationship....i was doing this out of my heart...and to make me happier. and i am. she has accomplished that in me.

and for once i get that really great feeling that this is the one. i wont let jeanne go if this doesnt work out you will still be a perfect friend and then one day it will work out. but......

nothing like this has happend yet and i only hope that we do go out. i will be the happiest person on earth and i hope she will be too.

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